Thursday, April 14, 2005

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tomorrow is jogathon day, and it also happens to be international friendship day. and you know im NOT looking forward to it. i chose to run, but i made a regretful choice, and thats sick. i should have chosen to do duty. im gonna lose on the CIP hours. never mind, my life doesn't run on cip hours.

i was happier than yesterday because i didnt have to buy anymore standard tickets, now that i'll be using my mom's adult card. but my dad will helping me make a new card.

i don't like it when cca is on weekdays, because it's so troublesome. like today for example, i was like carrying loads to school, it's so heavy. i was carrying my bb uniform, many books, files, and my boots. this 5-day week thing, is the worst idea of all because it's completely useless, because i don't do anything on saturdays anyway. my parents are still busy with their stuff. and you know me, i don't get along well with my father. so why should i even talk to him on saturdays?? cant they make sunday a permanent family day?!?!? it's obvious that im pissed.

see, i've just destroyed my mood to continue any further.

i heard that there's gonna be a voting for the best private. this is turning to be like a survivor thingie, where you vote and someone goes or wins, you know the drift. this time, i am voting for a winner - just like the finals. i am having a dillema between sean and kennedy. who is more worthy?? i am not very sure either.

again, julio isn't very happy and he starts making me laugh during a serious rehearsal. and i almost got punished by the senior. ahh forget it its over, bad times.

promotion test result will either be revealed this coming saturday or the next one. i am not nervous, i am not going to be surprised, because i already know that i am going to fail, and stay private for 6 more months. i bet those who pass will make me a laughing stock. its nature, it is human to show off. it is human to look down on those of lower status. it is human. so i can't possibly stop them if they want to laugh or cry or whatever.

i keep having a feeling that i will somehow drop to normal acad next year and its terrifying. my parents are expecting me to get top 5 in class and the pressure is there, LIVE. so it's kind of hard coping with many things. i need God's help. let's pray, amen.

i think i should stop, the addiction is definitely one of the reasons of a drastic drop in my grades.

here's the verdict: kennedy, i am voting for you ^^ hope you win the title.